Rollercoaster of Emotions

Today was odd. I was in a jubilant mood to begin the day. A colleague was coming to treat some wheat with a biological so I could do a trial for him, comparing to untreated. We had that to do and basically to try our corn and see where it was for moisture. Pretty simple day. My guy was running around doing odd jobs and contributing to the two main goals a little bit at a time. He did plug the disc like I promised he would but that's just fun. Anyways, as the morning progressed I noticed that I was becoming more and more irritable. I decided to sit down and do some spreadsheet therapy. I had to create a file for a meeting next week and figured this repetitive, mundane task would calm me down. It didn't. I got increasingly frustrated with the frequent interruptions and questions coming from a variety of sources. Maybe I was getting hangry. I did scale down my usual breakfast yesterday. Apparently weight loss is 60% activity and 40% diet after all. So I had my paltry lunch and actually had some laughs with my guy. He revealed to me that he has plans on Saturday. Huh? I was planning to hammer down on Saturday. What betrayal is this! I WANT to go! In my mind, we were doing a site Saturday, a site Monday and maybe a site Thursday and I'd be half done corn in the first week. So I told him to go test the corn after lunch. It came back too high, over 30%. So hope began to slip away. I jumped on the tractor to do some tillage, that usually numbs my mind. My phone didn't allow for that. I soon had to jump off to quell other concerns. I think in the background, my mind was slowing coming to terms with the fact that corn would not come easy for me. It will be a struggle. I made the mistake of looking at the forecast and that did not help! We got the wheat trial planted perfectly and got everything cleaned up and put away. We even tried the corn again a few hours later when there were questions about settings and it was actually 28%. Close but no cigar. I think I'm still struggling with the fact that I don't get an easy route on corn, I'll have to wait around for it for the first time this year. I think that and I was still hangry. My lunch and breakfast calorie consumption summed to 900. For a man of my carriage I'm not sure that is adequate. I compensated with a 1500 calorie dinner, which was a mistake all the way around. Short term, I had a tummy ache. Long term, it's going straight to the gut. It wasn't even fun to eat. So that was the day. I still don't feel good about, somewhat defeated.