Stepping Out

I woke up early today after getting a magnificent sleep. I had dozed off watching YouTube before nine and woke briefly closer to ten before passing out until half six. That was a thick one. I think the knowledge of most of the remaining seed going out yesterday calmed my mind enough I could get a deep sleep. I used the extra pep in my step to expand my walk to the mailbox. I got a new pair of MeUndies in the mail and wanted to go get them, I turned left before the mailbox though and got some steps in. The funny part for me was that I did it in my slippers, I didn’t want to put on socks and for some reason I was wearing them when I made the decision to leave the house so I went for a rip in them. They are hard soled, it was fine.

When I returned from my walk I made breakfast quickly. I ate it piping hot to make sure I was at my desk at eight. I worked on something for my boss and started reviewing some other files. Things were slowing moving in the right direction. I had a meeting that went ok, then a team meeting that went well. Then about halfway through that meeting the wheels fell off. I got a call from a driver asking me for customs documents. The very same ones that the team that has been causing me so much grief are responsible for. I immediately reached out asking them to forward a copy to the proper recipients. No reply. I had to have lunch to accomodate my afternoon meetings but it wasn’t a pleasant affair. Here is the scoreboard for last week. I was a lot more successful at making my meals but Mother wouldn’t be impressed with my level of adventurousness. Lunch was just a big bowl of leftover soup. Pretty much the same as I had for dinner the night previous.

I was watching my phone and filling up with dread at the same time I was filling up with soup. I’ve had too many heart dropping moments this spring, it’s getting to be absurd. I got re-added to an email chain from earlier in the morning. The load was missing paperwork and needed to return to the original shipping point. I nearly lost my mind. I had to write my reply three times before it was suitable to send. Frustration doesn’t begin to cover what I was feeling. I was really starting to feel like I was stretching the mantra of the famous philosopher group, Chumbawumba at this point. At some point I’m not going to get back up again. The maddening bit for me was that they cut me out of the chain and tried to find a way to hide that they hadn’t done their job properly. I got to call the customers and give them the news, glad I was able to disappoint them again, in case they didn’t remember the failure I got to share with them on Friday. My mood was pretty ugly after that. I missed a meeting trying to find a solution to this problem. I wasn’t given a very good reason for this entire mess. It’s ridiculous. I had a schedule one on one with my boss and spent most of the time talking about this disaster. It’s really bumming me out. Anyways, I worked away for a few more hours and had a nice chat with a colleague in the West. He’s new to the team and we haven’t had occaision to interact as much yet. It was half five when we finished up. I went and started my dinner preparations. Again, nothing was on the board so I did what I wanted. And I wanted comfort food. I put a sack of breakfast potatoes in the air fryer and warmed them, almost for two rounds. I put half in a dish and half in the fridge. Next I fired in a box of perogies. Those I also split. I was picking at the potatoes with my hands while the perogies cooked and I had a clean bowl by the time the machine was done. This double dose of carbs soothed me slightly. I went to my bed and played HomeScapes for a bit. Then I just layed there stressing out and listening to my audiobook until I feel asleep just ahead of ten. Not a very enjoyable day overall. And the stress is back too. This season can’t end soon enough.